When Confusion in Ministry Leads to Closeness With God.

images-2“Consider what I say, for the Lord will give you understanding in everything.” –Paul to Timothy

That was quite a promise for Paul to make. “If you consider what I’m telling, Timothy, then the Lord will give you understanding.”

I wonder if I can claim this promise for me personally or was it intended only for Timothy? I want to believe it’s for me to but sometimes it doesn’t feel that gaining ‘understanding’ is as simple as Paul makes it sound. You see, there have been times when I was pastoring, and times since then, that I have sought out understanding concerning my circumstances only to be left in the dark.

“Why is this happening in my church?”

“Why is this happening to me?”

“Why, why, why?”

Nothing. Silence.

There is a connection between ‘consider’ and ‘understanding.’ Jesus said, “Consider the lilies of the field…” It takes time to consider. We miss things when we fail to consider, things pass us by.

“Did you notice that rainbow?”

“No, I guess I missed that.”

Are you confused about anything happening in your church? Are you confused about anything happening in your personal life? Have you take adequate time to consider? ‘Considering’ should be a spiritual act. ‘Considering’ can be a form of prayer or meditation…often times both. But just as there is a connection between ‘consider’ and ‘understanding’ there is also a connection between confusion and closeness.

God doesn’t always give me understanding simply because I’ve taken the time through prayer and meditation to consider my circumstances. However, if my struggle to gain clarity/understanding happens on my knees then there is a fellowship-factor that happens between me and God. Confusion can bring closeness.

On the other hand, if my attempts at achieving understanding is done apart from prayer, if all I am doing is ‘considering’ as a mental exercise apart from fellowship with God, I might gain understanding but miss God. I’d rather miss clarity than miss God. To be honest with you, I’d rather have both, but I have no guarantee of both. I think I can only be guaranteed half of both.

The Father intends every act of ‘considering’ to be a connecting-point between me and Him. God uses confusion to achieve closeness between us. So…sometimes ‘considering’ results in ‘understanding’ and sometimes all we get from seeking clarity from God is God.

Is there anything in your church or in your personal life that is confusing to you? Let that confusion be used (through considering) as a point of connecting to the Father. Who knows, maybe He’ll give you understanding along with giving you Him.